Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Scared Of Death

Is anyone else out there afraid of death? This subject came up when I visited my parents' house on Sunday. My mom, sister, and I confided to each other that we were all scared to die. I am scared more now that I have a child then when I didn't. I guess for me, I just don't know what's going to happen after it happens. Will I even know it happened? Will I even know I am dead? Mostly, I am scared of what will happen to my kid. No one can love him like I can. This scares the shit out of me. What do you think?

I know some people will comment that you have to have faith in God. I know that. But even with faith, you have to wonder. Wouldn't it just suck if all the people who have this faith end up dying and it didn't turn out like it was suppose to?

This subject is a little touchy. It's a little morbid. It's what I fear. So, there you go folks. Honesty and emotions worn on my sleeve.


Leann said...

There are plenty of people who fear death. It's fear of the unknown.

I don't lean on God, but my understanding of the other side to see me thru.

I don't fear death but do hope I'm left on this earth long enough to see my grandchildren grown.

simonsays said...

I am not afraid to die, my faith is strong, but I am afraid to leave those I love. :)

austere said...

I guess one woulnt know when its time to go.
maybe a premonition before, but not the exact moment.

this is but one life in a cycle of many, like a change of clothes, a change of roles and you start all over again. as the verse goes- many times this birth, many times a death, many times will you seek shelter in your mother's womb..

Cheryl said...

I fear what it would be like to know I'm dying. I fear what it will feel like to have my loved ones die. I don't think about it much. My parents and aunts and uncles are getting older. Their deaths are inevitable, and something I'll have to deal with. I think about people I know who have died, and always hope they're really happy.

bonnie said...

I love your question and I love what you have to say about it. First, it's not a personal problem, if you know what I mean. To be born is to have to die. For all of life...even for the broccoli. I guess I don't care really, since we're all in this together. I don't want it to hurt. When I see a dead person, they look serene, the tension gone and that gives me peace about death. Jessica says it's just another hurdle. Talk about "wise."

David Kim said...

I think I fear the pain associated with dying more than death. I hope to die in my sleep when I'm old. That way I can transition from dreams and then let my soul go when I croak.

No use worrying about it now though. Just try to enjoy every day and savor it.

You should make a will and living trust for your kid.

Annabel said...

Although I have my belief in God, I am still afraid of death. Like you, I worry about what would happen to my son. I want to live to see him successful.


What I find most interesting with death, is that my beliefs tell me to not fear it, but my timidness seeks the fear and I have these horrible scary thoughts on it all. Go figure..Death is so scary and you're right to say about how it is to think about death when you have a child...
passionate post...I really enjoyed it!!


I fear having to live the longest and saying goodbye to all of them and then having to die alone.


marykay said...

I think my biggest fear is who will take care of my baby if something happened to me.I have a girlfriend that we jokingly say will keep Ash cause her daddy can't do hair! but, truthfully it scares the hell out of me to think I won't be here to take care of everything...thats the control freak in me I want to be able to say when I die!