Go Slower

I have a million things to do before I head to my parents for the fourth. But as I am getting ready, I realize that my life is just that. My life consists of all of these "millions of things to do". It's quite sad actually. It's like I have forgotten how to live. I remember when I was a kid, I would lie on my back on the grass, look up at the clouds, and wonder what life would be like when I got to the age I am at now. I have surprised myself. I never thought I would be a 32-year old, single, full-time+ career mom.

Is it what I wanted for myself? Back then I did not. I expected what every little girl expects. To meet the perfect guy, get married, have babies, and play house. What in the hell was I thinking?

I am happy right at this moment, but I know that I could be happier. Maybe if I take all of those "millions of things to do" and slow down. Maybe take it a "hundred at a time". Who knows.

Well, I hope that all who come across this post have a safe 4th of July. My parents do not own a computer, so I will not be back until Friday.

Happy Holiday

Nothing To Do

I don't know what to talk about tonight. There isn't much going on. My boyfriend is watching baseball. Joy. The Mets and the Yankees are playing. Battle of the big city. Don't have any major baseball teams very near to me except for the KC Royals, and they suck, Royally. Lol.

Some sports are fun to watch on television, but baseball is not one of them for me, live or televised. I love football though. I am a big fan of Randy Moss. He currently plays for the Oakland Raiders. My boyfriend likes the KC Chiefs. Go figure. I purposely do not like the Chiefs because he does. I know that is childish, but I don't always act my age. I can thank my kid for that.

Anyway, I am a season ticket holder for the Chiefs, even though I don't care for them. It's just exciting to go to the games, tailgate, people watch, and just get out of town. You should see some of the folks that come to these games. WOW!!

Oh!! I am so bored! I guess I will explore the internet for awhile and see how my friend Andrew is doing on his blog, 4th Avenue Blues. He is truly talented. If you get a chance to check him out, do so. You will not be disappointed.

Tis' the Season

My goodness. It is July 1 and it is busy, busy, busy out there. I work for a major grocery chain and holidays kill. The stores were humpin' today. First of the month is horrendous for some of these stores depending on the location of the store.

Anyway, I was working today and a boss of mine made a "suggestion" to me about one of my stores. Boss said that we would have to place a "newbie" manager in the deli dept. in one of my large volume stores. I about had a stroke. "newbie" came from a competitor and has not worked in our stores before. We have recently employed several workers from this certain competitor because they are soon going out of business. So, I am a little nervous about putting "newbie" in one of my monsters. I think he should start small and work his way up.

Boss said that we would have to place "newbie" in this store and deal with it. Boss said that I would have to get "newbie" some training. I know in my right mind that the training will have to come from me. "newbie" is scheduled to start the week I go on vacation to the Bahamas.

Do you see where I am going with this?

I have given Boss other options, but Boss doesn't want to go those routes. Looks like I will have an untrained manager in one of my high volume stores alone the first week. The employees in that department will eat "newbie" for dessert.

I better get all of them some bibs. :)

Perception is Reality

I have been told before that perception is reality. Is that true? This is so true if you have an opinion all of the time. The problem- those of us who have an opinion about everyone, whether we know that person or not. You know who you are. You watch someone walk by who may not have all of their teeth or you see someone who isn't wearing shoes. I know what you are thinking, because I have thought the same thing. White trash. But does it occur to us what that person has gone through, the hardships they have endured? Absolutely not. We are only worried about how they look and are flabbergasted that they would be out in public like that. It goes that way for all people, all races, all stereotypes, all of us.

I will be the first to admit that I am one of those shallow people. I thought at first that I couldn't help it, that it was just human nature. And maybe it is human nature. But it isn't humane. People have stories, they have backgrounds and hardships. Who are we to judge anyone before taking a look at ourselves? We are only average, where some people may have been through something that made them a better person, that makes them unique.

I am not saying that I won't ever perceive someone by their looks or actions, but I sure as hell will be more conscious about doing so. To each his own. Teeth or no teeth.

Work is a Drag

Work has been a total drag. I have so much to do. Time management is definitely not on my side this year. I have had a headache for 2 days now. Maybe it's stress. Maybe I'm depressed. Probably both.

I just can't seem to get into my groove. I was doing so well there for awhile. Going to one of my stores and seeing my best guy friend has been a total drag lately. He's got a girlfriend and hasn't really wanted to hang out lately, nor does he call me anymore. I am such a jealous little girl. I so need to get over it. It's making me be a bigger loser than I was when I originally started this blog.

I have to train three people this Friday. I used to work with two of them. Joy. One guy is an eccentric gay boy who does things his own way, not the way it's suppose to be. Not to forget to mention that he is a total closet slut. The other one is a girl who is this petite, pretty little thing. She has some Hispanic blood in her. All the more to want to stab her in the head with a pitchfork for being so pretty. She is an out of the closet slut. Joking. She is quite an airhead and I know that I do a better job than both of them put together. Thus, the reason why I am the one training them.

Television has become pathetic. News is depressing, reality shows are not reality at all. I am addicted to the show called "The Hills" on MTV. It is the dumbest show I know, but I am hooked because Heidi is such an idiot. I enjoy watching this show and laughing my ass of because she is such an airhead. She quits everything she tries. Definitely a spoiled brat who needs to live in her car for awhile (thank you Andrew). Maybe then will she realize what the real world could be like.

If there is anyone who has some advice on how to make my job more fun and productive, please let me know. I basically go into my stores and make sure that the departments that I oversee are doing everything according to the program, plus some. Luckily, I am not a bitch like the girl who had the same position before me. I am well-liked among most. I guess it makes it a little easier.

My boyfriend thinks he is living here. I can't remember the last time he stayed the night in his own house. I don't mind really, but my apartment is getting smaller and smaller. It's that independence that I don't want to lose. Know what I mean?

Okay, enough bitchin' for now. There is no one else I can bitch to, so I guess you are it.