Locks of Love

I cut 14 inches off of my hair today. I feel bald. I feel naked. Then I thought about the ones who are bald already, the ones who have cancer. Then I felt selfish. But, I feel better because at least my hair will go to someone who can use it.

It's cute. And it will grow back. If I decide not to keep it this way, anyway.

Autumn

It is a wonderful day out today. I had to get up at three this morning to go to work and I have just arrived home. There has been a steady light rain falling all morning. It's glorious. I have that feeling of nostalgia, remembering back to when I was 12 and wanted to go to the city pool so bad, but couldn't because of that light, pitter-patter. It brings back such good memories. It's a reminder to me that autumn is just around the corner. Then the rain will be a touch cooler and the smells will be different; more woody and smoky. The leaves will fall off the trees and gather along the curbs of all the streets. Children will be kicking it along as they trudge off to school. That is when I think about the holidays that will approach soon: Halloween, Thanksgiving, and on to Christmas.

I don't want to stop daydreaming about this. Autumn is my favorite time of year. It's also the lonely time of year. That is why I like it so much. It's the time of year when I am so in tune to me, myself, and I. It's a time of year to reflect on the previous, make a couple of mental notes, and plan to embark a whole new year.

I can't wait for autumn to get here.
It's the best season of the year.
Leaves turning gold, red, and brown.
Turning my frown up-side down.
Soon there will be costumes and candy.
Toasting our wine and our brandy.
It's the perfect time of year,
To spend it with someone very dear-
Me.

Go Slower

I have a million things to do before I head to my parents for the fourth. But as I am getting ready, I realize that my life is just that. My life consists of all of these "millions of things to do". It's quite sad actually. It's like I have forgotten how to live. I remember when I was a kid, I would lie on my back on the grass, look up at the clouds, and wonder what life would be like when I got to the age I am at now. I have surprised myself. I never thought I would be a 32-year old, single, full-time+ career mom.

Is it what I wanted for myself? Back then I did not. I expected what every little girl expects. To meet the perfect guy, get married, have babies, and play house. What in the hell was I thinking?

I am happy right at this moment, but I know that I could be happier. Maybe if I take all of those "millions of things to do" and slow down. Maybe take it a "hundred at a time". Who knows.

Well, I hope that all who come across this post have a safe 4th of July. My parents do not own a computer, so I will not be back until Friday.

Happy Holiday

Nothing To Do

I don't know what to talk about tonight. There isn't much going on. My boyfriend is watching baseball. Joy. The Mets and the Yankees are playing. Battle of the big city. Don't have any major baseball teams very near to me except for the KC Royals, and they suck, Royally. Lol.

Some sports are fun to watch on television, but baseball is not one of them for me, live or televised. I love football though. I am a big fan of Randy Moss. He currently plays for the Oakland Raiders. My boyfriend likes the KC Chiefs. Go figure. I purposely do not like the Chiefs because he does. I know that is childish, but I don't always act my age. I can thank my kid for that.

Anyway, I am a season ticket holder for the Chiefs, even though I don't care for them. It's just exciting to go to the games, tailgate, people watch, and just get out of town. You should see some of the folks that come to these games. WOW!!

Oh!! I am so bored! I guess I will explore the internet for awhile and see how my friend Andrew is doing on his blog, 4th Avenue Blues. He is truly talented. If you get a chance to check him out, do so. You will not be disappointed.

Tis' the Season

My goodness. It is July 1 and it is busy, busy, busy out there. I work for a major grocery chain and holidays kill. The stores were humpin' today. First of the month is horrendous for some of these stores depending on the location of the store.

Anyway, I was working today and a boss of mine made a "suggestion" to me about one of my stores. Boss said that we would have to place a "newbie" manager in the deli dept. in one of my large volume stores. I about had a stroke. "newbie" came from a competitor and has not worked in our stores before. We have recently employed several workers from this certain competitor because they are soon going out of business. So, I am a little nervous about putting "newbie" in one of my monsters. I think he should start small and work his way up.

Boss said that we would have to place "newbie" in this store and deal with it. Boss said that I would have to get "newbie" some training. I know in my right mind that the training will have to come from me. "newbie" is scheduled to start the week I go on vacation to the Bahamas.

Do you see where I am going with this?

I have given Boss other options, but Boss doesn't want to go those routes. Looks like I will have an untrained manager in one of my high volume stores alone the first week. The employees in that department will eat "newbie" for dessert.

I better get all of them some bibs. :)