IT'S A BOY!!

I always have questions about relationships, dating, and the opposite sex in general. One question I have always had is - Why do couples date for longer than 9 months? What is the point in dating that same person for longer than that if you don't plan on getting married? I chose 9 months because that is how long a pregnancy lasts. Don't ask.
Anyway, why should couples stay together longer than that? Is it the fun, exciting lives they lead? Probably not. Is it because of the best sex life ever? Probably not. I think it is because most woman are dependent and they are "comfortable" in the relationship. But surely after 9 months, one can tell if that person is someone they are willing to put up with for the rest of their life.
I have often wondered why I have stayed in relationships for longer than 9 months. I suppose it was convenient. There wasn't anything better at the time. The older I get, the more I want and expect. Sometimes, guys just don't measure up. They usually last about 8 months and 27 days. Go figure.

I'm Tired

Do you ever get tired? Tired of the monotonous life that we all live? Had a bad day today. It's always the same thing. You try to do a good job and then someone comes around and has to shit on your day. Why? It's like sometimes you feel like its your job to fake it and smile. Just like sex. HaHa. Wouldn't know about that cuz' I haven't had any in forever. Maybe that is my problem. Lack of sex. What I need is one day of the month set aside for an all day marathon of sex. But then I would be tired again. Back to square one.

The One I Can't Have

I love him. From the very beginning, I loved him. It is the confident way he carries himself; shoulders back, head held high. It's his boyish grin, almost too shy to show it. It is the innocence, the way that he is when he is near me. It's what he chooses to reveal about himself to me and the thoughts he keeps to himself. Why always so private? I know. It's no one's business. It is the way he teases, always with that hint of sarcasm. It's the amazing way he can recall all things. It is his independence and the reality that he needs no one. It's because he is so comfortable with who he is. It is his honesty, however brutal it may be. It's all he has to offer and all he is not willing to give. All of these things make him the one I cannot have, despite how much I love him.